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Saturday, October 31st, 2026
8:03 pm	Quick OOC Note. Heya All, This Journal is an IC journal for Speaks-with-Spiders, from the tcgarou game. Its free for all to read, however as the journal is about in character stuff there are a few rules that need to be followed. #1 Please don't comment(anywhere other than this entry), the journal is meant to be shared, but In Character, Spiders would have all of his journal entires locked from everybody.. So IC no one is actually supposed to be reading them other than him. #2 For members of my gaming group, NO METAGAMING, there are going to be things in this that are IC but may or may not ever be said by my character out loud at game. If i catch people trying to use this information to their advantage in game I will simply stop posting here. (Not neccesarily counting ST's of course if you get evil idea's from my journal, feel free to bounce them off me.) #3 And just to make this 100% clear, if the previous didn't. This Journal is IC meaning that any and all opinions and feelings within are that of a fictional character. Who doesn't always think and feel the same way I do. Thank you for your time and enjoy yourself... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
6:35 am	Big Moot Our sept hosted a very large moot, lots of Garou from all over the place. I was very nervous too many high ranking Glass Walkers.. I am glad that mostly it went fairly well, I got to meet lots of new and interesting Garou. Especially two Theurges that I have decided to keep in touch with via the spirits.. However not all was good about the weekend, Stone and I talked for about what seemed like 10 minutes and that was all I saw of her. I was dissapointed to say the least. I am angry at Po very very much, he is a big part of the reason that I didn't go out with the rest of the garou on the raid that happend as part of the big moot. Telling me over and over that it was too dangerous. Yet later the dumbass not only goes, but comes back injured fairly bad. Apparently I am too weak, and I can't handle myself but its perfectly okay for him to go. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 14th, 2007
9:23 am	Attack on a Hive I have been incredibly busy as of late, so making an journal entry has not been my top priority. We lost another pack member and so the Fox pack curse continues. Though not surprising considering what we were doing. Hives are not fun and happy places. It was a tough battle, those of us who got out were lucky. I WAS LUCKY! I couldn't believe it, I was there and four Spirals were there, and I was the only one left in full control of my faculties, everybody else was frenzied or down. I didn't know what the hell to do, I was sure I was dead as the Spirals looked at me like I was a particularly tasty piece of lamb. THANK GAIA! That Rides and Ashes showed up when they did, everybody could have bought the farm, its bad enough that Honors and Silence died.. I just I don't know, I was lucky.. I was really lucky... (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 18th, 2007
11:49 am	I made a horrible error. I didn't realize how stupid i was being last night, I should have put a stop to the whole trip. I didn't realize how dangerous what we were doing was. I am the Theurge, I should have known better. I thought I could deal with it as a normal spirit problem, after all, I reasoned since we were going to see a Banshee, and they taught the gift that Finnegan sought, I thought that as long as we dealt with the spirits properly and politely it would be okay after all I reasoned, whether it was an unpleasant or not Banshee's apparently regularily taught this gift to Fianna, so it was possible to do this without death or huge amounts of danger. I didn't realize how different the other spirits that we were dealing with were. I didn't know that Silence was pregnant, if I had realized that its as simple as she would have never entered the graveyard with us. I may not know everything but its a simple equation as to why we were attacked, Silence was pregnant, we were dealing with Death spirits. A pregnant woman is like a symbol of everything a Death spirit is the antithesis of. Silence was like a beacon to them, it makes sense. In fact i am surprised we weren't attacked as soon as we crossed over... Talking Crazy was right, and I feel awful, I feel worse than I have ever felt. It was all my fault. I have never felt as dissapointed at makeing a mistake as I have last night. One of the Garou who I most looked up actually twitted me and I never felt as completely moronic as I did in that moment. I did the right thing, I apologized to the caern totem for our tresspass, I helped cleanse. I deserve whatever punishment is going to be put down upon me. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 13th, 2007
4:58 pm	Things Change.. I didn't even realize it but I am very close to being able to challenge for Fostern. Its weird, I want to breach the next level so badly, but at the same time I am afraid of it. Its strange, I have enough rewnown that if I work hard I won't stay a Fostern for very long. I think I will try to keep an even keel, and sit for just a little before I challenge for Adren its not a good idea to try and over extend myself. I am starting to feel more useful though, Atraxia and I work well together, we come up with well thought out plans. We defeated the Sludge Elemental quickly and decisvely. I feel that helping with the cubs is also something I am very interested in, though I lost the Beta Den parent challenge I don't feel bad as I lost to Atraxia and I know she will be a good one. I am personally glad that the Sky Talons bowed out, I don't like them (Well honestly I just don't like Sven.) I am still generally annoyed at Ashes, I find him to be a pain in the ass.(Not the good kind.) Gunter told me something interesting, apparently he doesn't like that I have the name Spiders. It annoys him.. So much so that Gunter refers to my name in front of him just to rile him. I didn't even realize it before, but know I notice that when people call me Spiders he gets this hard glare in his eyes. It has something to do with him being disliked by Luna, or some such, I am not sure I understand. Gunter said he couldn't say much more than that, some mumbling about a rite he won't do. I guess I will have to figure that out on my own. AND OMG! Gunter I mean what the hell is wrong with him, he friggen doesn't understand what the hell he has done. I mean totally violating my privacy, and I can't believe that he doesn't get it.. I mean he knows that I am gay now, but I am not 100% sure he knows what that means.. And I don't think he understands the dreams at all.. I mean dear god, I worry about what happens when he figures that out.. I might not live to see Fostern.. Can't my personal life at least be simple, bad enough that I have to fight the spiritual corruption of the universe on a day to day basis. But can't I at least have a normal romantic life... Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Monday, February 19th, 2007
3:20 pm	The I don't like Ashes post I never really mentioned it in my journal before, but i didn't realize how happy I was when Ashes left. He's a real pain and I don't like him and many of my sept mates don't like him either. I find the way he has become sept alpha again to be very very questionable... I don't like his descision about Faith AT ALL... I am waiting for him to try and claim Alpha Glass Walker, I am not going to make it simple.. He is going to have to challenge me for it.. I am also in challenge for Beta Den parent, even if I don't win I will do my best to sabotage the efforts of the Sky Talons to try to become co-beta Den Parents.. I don't think they should be Den Parents, especially Sven. Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2007
8:22 pm	A Packmate I hate fomori, I hate them, i hate this stupid god damned war for the heart of reality. Ever since my first change, its as if the world became a screwed up stupid version of itself. Evangaline, its not fair, sure she went the way we all should want to go. But she had so much more that she could have done. I don't know why I keep going, I don't know why I bother sometimes. But at the same time there is too much, I have to keep going. I have to find out what is happening at her school. I have to find out about a vampire that apparently is rich and in the city. And I have to run some licsence numbers, i have to keep learning gifts. I have to not attack Reza when I frenzy (I can't beleive that happend.) I have to worry about the leadership of the sept, i have to worry about Faith.. Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
8:48 am	Elders and Assholes Despite the fact that I have been not having any nightmares lately I am still pretty stressed. I am pissed about the Alpha Theurge, he's an arrogent prick who doesn't understand how to be a leader. He obviously has never been an Auspice Alpha before, the fact that he's managed to piss of pretty much every theurge of the sept attests to that. It took him three months just to take five seconds out of his busy schedule to introduce himself. He seems surprised that we didn't take the time out of our busy schedule to flounder through his damn maze so we could introduce ourselves.. I was bullied into challenging for Ritemaster from Reza, If she had been availible I probably would have gotten my butt kicked. Unfortuanatly and fortunatly Rides beat me to it. We will see if he screws things up. Apparently the elder Get, Shreds is challenging Gunter for Alpha of the Sept. This makes me and many Garou unhappy, from what I understand he's not leadership material. Also Ashes may be back, I find that annoying. I am just getting used to being Alpha Glass Walker, I won't be that for long if he sticks aroud... I am really pissed off about Faith, she is a danger to this sept and keeping her around is foolish. I almost went off at the moot when they tried to award her glory, thankfully Reza spoke up so I didn't have to. Still gotta remember never owe a favor to a Shadow Lord.. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 7th, 2007
10:26 am	I Am A Complete Fool All hail the new Alpha Glass Walker, king of idiots. What was I thinking? Why didn't i just do what my instincts told me to do. For once Wepawet was right. I should have just had me and the other Glass Walkers kill her. Fucking god dammit its almost as if Circut Breaker, jumped ship just to screw me over. Its funny out of the Tribal Alpha's how Glass Walker is certainly one of the most important ones. Probably because of how unlike the other tribes we have such a unique perspective, and how much the other tribes look to us for answers about the city. If I stay alpha, I will be in the middle of a lot. Right now I am very angry with the Shadow Lords, I am so stressed I don't know what the hell I am going to do. I.. I... I didn't think I would be thrown into the fire right away. I didn't think it would be this hard right away. How can I handle this? Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
2:28 pm	I don't know what to do. Gunter seemed depressed or something so I got a bit nosy and was checking up on him. I finally found out its becuase of plans to go on a mission where he is pretty sure he is going to die. Its an important mission, and I can't interfere even if I wanted too. But I don't know what to do, I have a hard time sleeping at night nowadays, we sit together on his couch and watch movies together and I don't know what to do. Should I do anything? Maybe if I was a better theurge, i could figure it out. I somehow manage to keep my cool in front of the others. I don't know how long I will be able to keep this to myself.. Sometimes I feel ill for no good reason, what the hell should I do? Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Monday, December 4th, 2006
12:15 am	A long weekend. The last gathering was rather stressful, a large battle to take out one of the various factories that we found out about being wrym tainted and processing banes.. I had to talk to a Stormcrow to make a talen it was very nerve wracking Grandfather Thunder and his brood make me nervous. I also ending up being part of the healing backup brigade during the battle. On the Gunter front, I had a conversation with him about the whole challenge deal, while I am still not 100% happy with his reasoning, I understand his logic. The conversation was well surprising, he was fairly respectful and nice to me, at least as much as Gunter can be. He has been complimenting me a lot recently, actually which is quite disconcerting. I kind of thought my crushing over Gunter had run its course, but nope, not only is it still there but his recent behavior has made me all get all giddy like a school girl when he's around. And it doesn't help that I still don't have a new place, and I am still living in his house. Being close quarters with a crush that you can't have is hell.. Faith worries me, she seems to like stirring up trouble under the pretense of being a Philodox. And she likes to hang around with that new Wendigo Theurge, I can never remember his name, actually I don't think we have ever been formally introduced. Honestly I don't care, he's a bully, I saw him picking on Sam and repressed the urge to beat him with a tire iron. I just don't like him, I am not 100% sure but I think I have caught him staring at me every once in while. Its weird dealing with someone who has such a bad attitude and who is at the same level as you. With someone of higher rank you mostly just have to deal with it. But with someone of the same rank there's almost an expectation for you to challenge each other... (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 19th, 2006
9:51 am	I have been made a fool of. Anger doesn't even begin to describe the way I am feeling today, GUNTER IS A COMPLETE ASS!!!!!!!!! He's a cold manipulative bastard, and if I was far more capable, I would do whatever was within my power to take him out of Alpha position. I am sick of his arrogent, bullying, bloated tick god attitude. If he wants to protect his political postions in the sept I find his methods more than questionable. Posioning and putting other garou's life in danger just for a stupid challenge, and then manipulating me and the other Glass Walkers to help him. Its funny there was a point where he asked a question about who was more fit to lead, and at the point when he asked the question I was more than willing to back him up. However his arrogence and his manipulation has not only cost him my trust, but I am pretty sure he has lost the support of all of the Glass Walkers. Not that I actually thinks he gave a fucking damn, he is a complete fool. I still am afraid of him, but now I don't respect him anymore, I was inches away from frenzying on the fucktard. I don't know if I was lucky or he was lucky that when me and Circut Breaker confronted him about it that he chose his words very carefully. Besides that complete idiocy, we talked to Fox, it was well rather amusing. He had me chase my tail, and he stole a Fox statue from me. We also gave him chickens, it all in all was a rather succesful talk. He even seemed to go off and talk to Reza about allowing us to do the Rite of the Totem to finally get all this pack stuff done. The Don of the Midwest showed up, I was very happy that I have been told that I was the only Glass Walker that there was no real complaints about. Except that I was slightly skittish, but honestly that doesn't bother me because its completely true, and hey I don't feel ashamed to admit that Reza, Wepawet, and Gunter scare me. Also the Alpha of her sept has in exchange for some favors decided to teach us some city rites and stuff. Amusingly he told us very specifically that not to allow Gunter to learn any of the rites that he taught us. Not much of true import other than those things have happend to me... Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 5th, 2006
11:07 am	Anger, Dissapointment, and Betrayal Finally I again have access to a computer, last night a great deal many things happend. We were sent out by Reza to talk to the City Father of New Ulm, it turns out that such a being does not exist or if he does he's hiding himself well. It probably would have been a simple waste of time, if we hadn't been attacked by a Rage bane. And this in it of itself wasn't neccesarily dangerous, except for the fact that before we went out of to the city we asked Reza rhya to allow us to take a Ahroun with us in case we ran into trouble.. She refused, stating that she believed that if we took an Ahroun with us that everytime an Ahroun has gone into the city there has been a fight. Her misguided idea of trying to avoid a veil breach I assume, however this moronic decision almost cost me and my fellows our lives. The bane that attacked us was strong, and managed to take control of Snow for a few seconds, causing him to frezy and attack me. Atraxia and Chloe were not strong enough to hold him back, we were all injured the bane was strong and burned us all, through luck Snow managed to fight off the Banes control and ran off. We were about to be overwhelmed by a group of banes thankfully we realized the better part of valor and shifted out of the umbra and into reality. Also last night a new Glass Walker appeared, she went with me, Atraxia, Chloe, and Snow to the city. Part of our mission to locate the City Father was a plan of mine to ask my totem Easy Credit to set up a meeting for us. I needed to attract my totems attention, so I sent me and the rest on a spending spree with my credit cards, I wasn't really paying attention to who I handed which cards out too. I got what I thought was all my cards back when later I realized one was missing, after cancelling the card and finding a far greater amount of money spent on it than i had authorized. I thought about it for a few seconds and realized that the person most likely to have stolen it from me was the new Glass Walker. This only slightly angered me, it was just money, money in the long run can be replaced. Of far greater annoyance was her abandoning us in the city after we talked to Easy Credit and before we were attacked by the bane. Her presence though she was not an Ahroun but a Philodox might have changed the battles tide. Far later I learned that while alone with Chloe she had revealed that she had a cybernetic leg, this set off huge alarm bells to me Med's old camp was all about cybernectic enhancement. I slowly started dissimenating this information but much chaos was ensuing due to another completely unrelated issue. I mentioned this to Sixth Wind, being a Warder I thought it possible that he already knew this information. This was a tactical error on my part, Sixth Wind used his gift to sense triatic balance on her and grew angry and went to attack the new Glass Walker. Me and Snow tried to follow him and prevent him from doing so, thankfully Wepawet blocked his path and demanded answers from him. They had a private chat, and then called me to talk to me, the first words out of Wepawets mouth were to ask me why me and the others hadn't killed our new Glass Walker yet. I was very insulted, so the first thing I did was a turn around on Wepawet. "Thus far I had assumed if she was a true threat, that certainly the Warders wouldn't have let her onto the Bawn." there strangely wasn't an argument about that. So I continued telling Wepawet about how it was possible that our new Glass Walker was a Cyber Wolf, however it wasn't only members of the camp that had cybernectic work done on them. I needed more information before I would summilarily slay her. Though not 100% satisfied with my answer, Wepawet assigned me to be our new Phildox's personal shadow to find out all I could about her, to not allow her to gain access to any secrets or info that could hurt us as a whole. Though very annoyed with the whole deal I realized how important and potentially dangerous the whole situation was, I agreed and went off to preform my duties. One far more important deal, in a complicated event, a kin was discovered to be not who she claimed to be not Fianna Kinfolk, but Black Spiral Kinfolk. At first I thought it was a simple act of betrayel, but it turned out far more complicated than that. It seems that despite her heritage the kin was pretty much an innocent who was tricked into believeing she was Fianna kin, whe she realized what she was, instead of trying to come to the leaders of the sept for protection and help. She chose to run, somewhere along trying to escape she became wyrm tainted and she was slain by a group of Garou. It was a very sad and horrible exchange. Especially for Alex our Get Ragabash who had taken her as a mate.. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006
11:16 pm	An interesting weekend A lot of stuff happend over the weekend, I felt useful for the first time as a Theurge since I came up here. All three of us Glass Walker Theurges managed to deal with the nature spirits to get them to do favors for us. And though I have to plant Elm trees for the next 5 years I guess thats not a problem. Gunter has completely taken a personal interest in me, I am like, I think his apprentice now which to be honest scares the ever loving crap out of me. I am still having the he's hot/he going to kill me where I stand for looking at him the wrong way thing, going on in my head. He also taught me some interesting things about Gaian spider spirits that I didn't know. It makes me think about trying to get revenge on Talking Crazy for the whole spider incident a few weeks back. Maybe I can get the spirits to help me string him up and hang him from a tree without hurting him or something. The whole Glass Walker leadership thing is finally taken care of thank god. That was really dang annoying though honestly I really want to challenge Circut Breaker myself. But I decided against it when Chloe said that she wanted things to settle down for now with the whole challenging thing. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
6:21 pm	Busy Night I was being dragged everywhere by everybody apparently, they all wanted to use me for various things... Mostly it seemed like it was going to be quiet until we got to the second farm.. Then we got attacked, strangely it looked as if I wasn't going to even get injured, well that was until Tarin frenzied as she crossed back into the Umbra, I had to take a beating for Stone's son it was well unpleasant but I survived... Chloe, was attacked by a vampire, based on what she told me she was very lucky to survive... She really shouldn't have gone all by herself to meet that sorority girl but we had been there before and been safe so I guess I understand her not really thinking about it... I actually have been meeting with Occult groups all week all by myself, I think I am going to force Hugh to go with me from now on... Currently I am awaiting word on the group that went to kill said vampire.. One of my packmates Kelsha went along and we have lost contact with her... I fear the worst... Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 6th, 2006
12:46 am	How dare he!!!! HOW DARE HE!!! I don't get it, I have never done anything to him, I have nothing but respect for him, hell I look up to him or is that looked up to him now? For god sakes I felt real empathy for him when Morgan died probably would have hugged him if I hadn't thought better of it.. I don't know anymore I am so angry at Talking Crazy, if there hadn't been cubs there, if I hadn't managed to hold onto the last shred of my control I would have frenzied right there and then and done everything in my power to rip his throat out. I managed to walk away, I don't know how but I am still very angry.. I know he didn't really hurt me, but he violated me in a way that no one in this sept has ever done, he disrespected me and the spiders.. I know that he's a Ragabash, I know he is mourning Morgan's death, Pip tells me something may be wrong with him... I don't know but I still can't stop feeling angry, I need to calm down I need to rest.. I need a break, exactly what I am not getting with our more recent problems which i have lots and lots of work to do... (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 30th, 2006
9:27 pm	An Attack and Deaths... Well I figured it would happen sooner or later, an attack on us by Med's Weaver goons.. Directly on the Sept... It was utter chaos as they attacked us from above with helicopters.. They were machine men or something, they were strong and kept taking severe beatings and then worst of all when we finally were able to take one down it exploded, I think if i had been closer when he went off I would have died. It was a mess but it wasn't until later after the real fighting was over that anybody died... Walter, Oswalds kin was checking out the wreckage of the helicopter the attackers came in, an explosion went off and killed him.. It was awful, and again i felt useless as I wasn't able to just magically make an electrical spirit appear out of thin air on command.. Also Morgan who was the head of the Conspiracy Theory pack took her own life from what i understand she was infected by some sort of weaver taint that wouldn't come clean... Talking Crazy was very upset and started crying while he was less than a few inches away from me, the urge to hug him almost overwhelming, I am glad common sense kicked in... This can't happen anymore, I will find a way to put the hurt into Med for causing the death of two of my sept mates if its the last thing I do... Current Mood: morose (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
1:20 am	I am truly weak.. I lost Alpha Glass Walker today, to a someone who just finished his rite of passage. I am not at all happy about this turn of events, Circut Breaker is not at all whom I would want to be Alpha. I was foolish, I should have never accepted the challenge in the first place and I really should have thought more carefully about it.. Its just par for the course I guess, i'm utterly useless we were in firefight today and all i was good for was getting shot... Whats wrong with me? what am i doing wrong why do i keep on failing? Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
3:55 pm	Last Gathering Its been a long while since I posted in my journal, I missed the gathering before the last big gathering due to a spirit I owed Chiminage too. The most recent gathering was fairly quiet, though eventful, I spent a good portion of the night in Lupus form. I felt it was a good Idea to get more in touch with my lupus side. I have made my first formal command as Alpha Glass Walker to Hugh, I told him that he was to teach Sense Weaver to anybody who wanted to learn it and who was capable of learning it. Pip has taken an interest in me as I thought she would, since she has become Alpha Theurge, she is teaching me some more basic spirit lore, also since she saw me loping about in Lupus form she decided it would be best to teach me Prayer for the Prey.. While I am most grateful for the teaching, I decided that I would be all huntery and get a rabbit all for myself, damn was that embarassing, when I finally found some game it was really dang hard to catch, I think it took me 6 hours of tracking, running, and chasing to finally corner the dang thing I was exhausted. Also at the last gathering I learned of a new Glass Walker Cliath and a Cub that's supposed to be a Glass Walker. They are both Theurges if what I am told is true, which means that after the cub goes through his Rite of Passage there will be three Glass Walker Theurges at this sept, which is rather strange I think... I decided to take the time and watch the den parents and the cubs to see how well our new cub was doing, there were a few times I cringed at some of the things he said, however I didn't want to step all over Talking Crazy's toes and interfere with his teaching. Speaking of Talking Crazy, one of the cubs tackled him to the ground, which led to a minor debacle. And yet some more minor notes, I believe a high ranking muckity muck from the Get of Fenris showed up. Something to do with Stone's Cousin, in fact Stone screamed at me in my mind to get him off the bawn which i did in due course but apparently Tarin saw where he went and follwed him. I tried to go after her but she rebuffed me.. I was very nervous whatever he had done was bad and Stone wasn't on the Bawn and I felt real nervous I tried to stay as close as I could watching over her cousin preparing to get gutted by a Get just in case I had to intervene(I wasn't about to let him get hurt), thankfully Atraxia went to find Stone who had gone into Frenzy and passed out somewhere near the Bawn. She came back as the crowd seemed to be getting calmer and going to a meeting concerning the kid, however Gunter caught me watching and gave me an order to watch over Morgan to make sure she didn't spy on the meeting he was about to have with the Auspice Alphas and the rest of the people involved. I was torn cause I wouldn't be able to keep an eye on stone's cousin, so I asked Atraxia to do it for me as I spent the night generally delaying and following Morgan any way I could think of, I am glad she didn't actively try to avoid me I am not sure I would have been able to keep an eye on her if she had. Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
Friday, June 16th, 2006
5:55 pm	Learning the Rite of Summoning Gunter is a tough teacher, he decided to teach me the Rite of Summoning, and boy does he make it really involved. I guess thats good in certain ways, I mean really who wants to piss off a spirit when you summon it. But I wonder how much of what he does is absoulutly neccessary and how much is window dressing. However I intend not to mess with what he gave me unless in extremely dire circumstances. Not so shocking is the use of blood in his version of the rite, there is something strange about him when he does rites too, something strangely arcane and mystical and holy or something i can't quite pin it down.. It was a tough but positive expierience i think mostly... I am glad he didn't ask me to show him how I do any of the rites i learned before I came up here.. He prolly wouldn't look to kindly on the Alarm Clock and chanting in Latin, that I use in the Rite of Spirit Awakening. I wonder if this interest in me will continue or if he will pass me off on someone else like Pip she is Alpha Theurge now so its possible, as far as I can tell he is still fairly dissmissive of me of course he is fairly dismissive of almost everybody so its hard to judge lol.. Also his new sept duties will probably keep him busy, its been stressful on all of us now that Ashes has left, so even though he doesn't show it he probably has felt the burden, we all have.. Current Mood: pensive (Comment on this)